Meditation for present moment acceptance

After attending a positive birth group where the group participated in a "Your Healing Place" meditation, I was deeply enlightened at a simple aspect of the guided meditation. The group was a large group of women, a few babies and some men. Instead of being inhibited by the lack of a quiet environment the teacher stated in the meditation "everyone you hear a baby noise, you will relax  10 times more." And it worked. With each external noise the mind was cued to relax farther. The noises were actually helping attain an inner healing place. This was life changing. Instead of trying to eliminate external chaos/disturbance so that we can have "inner peace" we can use the external chaos and disturbance to ascend to higher levels of blissful unity with God. So I wrote out a daily vision to read that would help me stop painful resistance to life, to allow life experiences to be just as they are, and to use those "disturbances" as the very tool to find the peace. So here it is...

"The various sensations and experiences of mortal life arise in and around me. These feelings and experiences allow me to deepen my inner knowing and connection to truth, to feel greater expansion and union with the universe, to prove that love is what I want most, and to connect with what and who I really am-a divine spiritual being within the paths of eternal progression. It is okay to feel what ever arises in the present moment. I feel many sensations deeply, but know that I am something much deeper and eternal. Feelings are fleeting, I am eternal. Whatever arises in my experience from moment to moment, I will open myself to love and truth, planting myself again into the loving universe.  Within every space, there is a place of softening. I allow myself to experience the depth and breadth of what is before me, knowing that these sensations and feelings flow, they do not last.  My power and purpose is found and realized in every moment, especially the apparently difficult ones. Each sensation and wave of experience from moment to moment provides the environment for me to ascend higher. "

Decided on Love

This afternoon during my meditation I renewed my focus on listening and obeying my inner voice. The light within all of us is from Christ. Christ says that he is the true light that is within all of us. This inner voice is always a voice of love. I, so far in my journey relate to God, understand God, and have experienced God as LOVE. The descriptions of Love in the scriptures are plentiful. Patient, kind, submissive, meek, humble, etc, etc.  all these qualities are strong and courageous. It takes more wisdom, more strength, more resolve to be loving than to be whatever the natural man desires in every moment, especially in defining moments. I have decided on love. I have decided on following than inner voice of love. It is a decision. In each moment I choose love, and in every circumstance the way that love is manifest is different, depending upon what the voice says. 

Sometimes love speaks, sometimes it holds the tongue. That inner voice of love has directed me through many different experiences, from daily and mundane, to overwhelmingly large and drastic. And I know that love never fails. If you choose to hold to Love, it will not fail you. It is an oasis amidst external turmoil. It is a solid foundation. It is a clear view of things, of people, of situations as they really are. It is God, both male and female. Their love is what gives life to all things. Love is the creative power that brings order and harmony to all. Love cannot fail, will not fail. When you become decided on love, you find an anchor, a compass, a map, a direction, a center and source of unshakeable peace and joy.

 I have given myself over to love, I have been won over by love. Each moment I breath I decide to continue to give myself over to love, to be own over by love. It is a continual path I have decided to choose. And it is oh so beautiful, messy, courageous, difficult and easy all at the same time. Love is what I seek, what I am,  and what I love. I am decided on love. 

Beauty in all of it

Sam's face was tear stained, snotty and tired. I had to wrestle and gently talk to him to get his pajamas on. He was done with today. Wanting to go to bed. I was doing my best to do so. As I watched those crying eyes turn in to still, sleeping ones I had a wave of emotion wash over me. Laying by his side, all he wanted was to snuggle by me. His little hands wrapped around my neck, clasped with some of my hair within his little fingers. His breath slowed and with each exhale hot breath flowed onto my cheek. In the craziness of daily life amidst the tantrums and trying to figure out what is for dinner, I find some of the sweetest and most rewarding moments. Here in this moment everything is right. Right as it should be. Even in the chaos. I find when I, as the mother, am reliant and close to jesus, it doesn't matter what crazy events happen to me or my kids, but everything is as it should be. I find such stillness and satisfaction in doing and experiencing the daily seemingly unimportant tasks. When I don't resist what is, but love myself and others through ALL, then there is an accompanying peace and deep satisfaction. It is my desire to be there, be present, and  be loving in every experience that crosses my earthly path through motherhood and discipleship. I want to feel, hear, experience the subtle whisperings of joy even when my 3 year old is having a bedtime meltdown. I want to be there, in a loving present awareness for each earthly experience I am given. It all is a gift. It truly is. 

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Love is most important

I have been thinking a lot about what is most important to me. I feel like when it is clear before me what is most important then I can eliminate distraction and unnecessary things in my life. I want to be headed in the direction of my purpose and only focus on what I love and value. And guess what? LOVE  is most important. Scripturally we are told that without charity and love we are nothing. Those found without charity at the last day will not abide the day. Love is the sign of a true follower of Jesus Christ. God is love. When love becomes who I am, what I value, what I sacrifice for, then I am able to become godlike and secure for myself the blessings that love gives. I believe that love heals all things, that it overcomes all. Love is how I have experienced god. Love truly is what is most important. 

In Abraham 3 we learn that we are on earth to prove ourselves. Prove what? To prove what we want most. What I want most is love. To abide in its strength and energy. 

I have been asking/telling myself when life is frustrating or worrisome or whatever it may be I say "love is most important". It's more important to be loving than right. To be loving, not having things my way is most important. 

And you know what? Life has been so enjoyable. Love is most important. 

Praise and Worship

Praise and Worship

-elevating god and removing the self/selfish natural man. 

-at one ing with the divine

-remembering testimony of who god is and what he does so during crisis you know what who and how to have faith. 

Worship is the act of sacrifice. Sacrifice of the natural man/carnalmind/ ego/that which will die/that which leads to death pain and captivity and bondage. Sacrifice is removing identification/at one ment with these and connecting to the creator of all that is. It is a wonderful connection being made with the divine only. With laying thyself down and taking up the divine identity. With basking in gratitude praise for god. Worship is exalting god and abasing the self. This is surrender. No wonder worship is arms stretched wide. It is surrender and receiving the blessing of the creator. Being in the flow of divine power. All that we do may become worship/surrender. 

It is in giving that we receive

Recently I have been absolutely obsessed with the phrase "it is in giving that we receive."

I have practiced in moments when I feel unsettled in any way to stop and give love, or whatever I am in need of. It is amazing that in forgiving, I receive open forgiveness. In removing a spirit of accusation and filling it with a spirit of love and kindness I am blessed with liberation from others accusations or the accusations of the evil one. 

There is full liberation from all we lack and  restoration to what we desire when we give freely that we might receive freely. I've seen it over and over. Experienced it over and over. It truly is in giving that we receive. Jesus taught this in his message of freely forgiving. Of doing unto others what you want done to yourself. For that which you send out, cometh back to you. 

It is the little acts that measure up to a lifestyle of giving and receiving love. 

This prayer has been hung on my wall, you have probably heard it before. It is one of my top favorites. 

"Lord, make me an instrument of thy peace.

Where there is hatred, let me sow love,

Where there is injury, pardon;

Where there is doubt, faith;

Where there is despair, hope;

Where there is darkness, light;

And where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek

to be consoled as to console,

to be understood as to understand,

to be loved, as to love.

For it is in giving that we receive,

It is in pardoning that we are pardoned,

and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.

Francis of Assisi

Enlightenment at Wendy's

Over the weekend we spent the weekend in St. George. On the drive down we stopped at a Wendy's, healthy right? I stood in line with the kids and my sister. An older couple began chatting with us. They were so friendly and happy. Traveling on their way from L.A. To Wyoming. After talking to them I had a wonderful enlightening moment. I felt a complete connection and oneness with the expanse of the universe. My heart was sooo full and connected. I looked around this little Wendy's restaurant at all the types, shapes, and ages of people and saw the sacredness of each soul. I closed my eyes and felt a golden connection to every soul within miles. It was incredible. I began to cry tears fill of hope. I wanted to tell everyone I saw that they are beautiful and their soul is on it's own sacred journey back to union with God. Their eternal progression was in progress. Words just can't describe my excitement and peace in this state. As I said before, my heart space felt like it had connected into the loving universe, it had no boundaries. 

This experience was spontaneous and a testament that nothing separates us from the love of Christ. His love and enlightenment are in and through and around all things. When we access that consciousness we are filled with experienced knowledge and association with the creator. It is all really miraculous. And exciting. There truly is nothing more satisfying or fun than growing in harmony with God.